Aquarius the Depressed

goodbye :'(

2008-09-19T12:44:46Z

so as u prbly alredy saw my best frend & my hero is leaving me for anuva .. well city not person lol but neway u no its like the same hing

gdbi jono. ill mis u, mayb more than u no

i cld only think of 1 song 2 express what how i feel, u shld watch it

srsly i hope u hav a gd time and live ur dreams (evn if they r without me)

also!!! digg this!!~!!~ lol! guess who im imitatin

i let my façade slip

2007-11-05T17:21:23Z

so im listnin 2 the finl edit of ep 4 n i noticd i let my positiv act slip 4 a few seconds, i sed:

[suse linux instaler] askd me so many questoins i wantd 2 harm myself

bt luckily the othrs thout it ws a joke so im okay...

perhaps my <3 cn get better

2007-07-10T20:52:09Z

so lrl ws q gd fun. i hd a lot more fun than i thougt n only cried a few times. also my wrists r intact lol

ill blog about it properley soon bt i htought id mention that i think adam cld mayb replace matt 4 me now b/c i saw him doin his gong a thong n he lukd gd n oily then sum1 showd me a websight which gave me a diffrent reaction than i thought it wld lol its calld sweetspin n i dnt wnt 2 link 2 it b/c its a bit dirty lol but u cn gues lol

also i njoyed tellin th gorila joke lol (every1 else loled 2! rofl)

"mashup" 4 matt

2007-07-05T14:04:39Z

wel i decided 2 make like a colage of songs 2 xpres how i feel about matt leving lugradio b/c he comented sayin he wanted 2 here it... lol bit embarasing but hey! neway i tried 2 use jokosha lik jono wanted but it didnt work so i used garageband like i normaly do lol o well mayb itll be gd enuf 1 day

neway here it is i made it an ogg file bc aparently mp3 is evil? n i shld prolly say its not safe 4 work and mayb not saf 4 ur ears either lol

hope u like it particuraly tallerthanronie :)) its not very gd bt 4 a first atempt?

cu at lugradio live!1 ill be there (yes both of my personalities lol!!) dnt 4get:

bye bye matt

2007-06-27T12:47:26Z

k so i think enogh time has passd now that i cn takl about my feelings here. u no already that matt left lugradoi lst month... i was suprised how upset i wass :(( i didnt no how strong my tinyest infatuation cld really be. i no adam sweet is sweet lol but he cnt replac matt in my heart ❥ i feel like part of me hs bin torn away from me. i thout i got over it q. quickly bt then wen i was at yahoo hackday and litning struck i wanted 2 run 2 him bt he wsn't there... and i relaised that he wnt ever b there agen.

o well i guess i hav 2 get usd to it and hell be at lrl (will u lol? u shld be) bt im not sure if that wil make it esier or harder 4 me b/c it wll be difficlt neway bt i will post more abt that l8r :(

ive bin tryin 2 distract myself w/computr stuff bt its just not workin :((( mayb i shld rite a song abt the pain bt im rubbish at music :(((( i pick up a guitar bt i cnt play it i thougt it wld come naturaly u kno bt it didnt so maybe ill make a "mashup" (is that the rite word lol) of songs that remind me of him bt wld ne1 listen? wld u listen?

leav me a comment so i no im not alone :(

even machines taunt me :'(

2007-05-07T11:11:15Z

so my honey pot caught a harvester wihc sounds like a uphemism lol but neway they start the email mockin me 4 being sad as if i need to be happy about some spammer but otherwise the rest of the day will b horrible and monotonous (tahts a new word i just learnt lol its gd isnt it! theres not even a red squiggle sayin its spelt wrong i got it rite 1st time!)

also they tell me 2 tell my friends bt if u look at my lj profile i only have 3 friends and 1 of them is me lol and jono and matt don't count... i'm so alone :'(

my hair

2007-05-03T13:09:13Z

k so u lot mock me 4 my hair colour and tho i chose this lj name bc of my hair and laugh bout it with u ill come clean: i hate it. i hate the way it makes ppl treat me. i hate mirrors. so i decided that since im letting my tru feelings out i shld get ur opinion on what i shld change it 2

ive bin playin with iphoto 2day... its pretty gd! u can edit ppl! ade u shld c what i did 2 u lol but not puttin it on the net bc its private ;) neway i thought id c what i look like with black hair

i dont think it works with my beard so i tried colourin that 2

im not sure lol maybe i shld gro my hair wat do u think???

mj ray h8s me :(

2007-05-02T23:34:31Z

on my other blog mj ray keeps telling me how much he h8s me :( i jst want 2 b left alone. i hope he doesnt find this 1... plz dont tell him i can trust u ppl rite? i have 2 trust someone all my friends lie 2 me :( like when jono sed he loved me but he prefers some dog :(((((

k ye i admit it it is me on that blog too not some imposter lol did i trick u?

also u helped me with my broadband and things b4 so can u help me choose a new ipod? i no they rnt free bt tbh im bored of my dull meaningless bleak free wrld i just wanna listen 2 music! y dose it have 2 b so hard to enjoy music???

friends only

2007-05-02T11:52:28Z

so some bloke pretendin 2 be me has told the world about this account :( bastard why cant he let me be myself!

i guess ill have to go friends only... comment on here who u r & ill friend u.

also, i go on at jono for likin metal but its actually q good... u should listen 2 panic! at the disco they r more metal than jono and much better singers 2 i understand their pain and they seem 2 understand mine...

edit i want 2 no how the imposter found me :(

gingalingling @ 2007-05-01T17:27:00

2007-05-01T16:31:32Z

u prolly kno that LugRadio Live is happenin again this summer. i rly dont want 2 go... i hate having to pretend to b happy for all the ppl watching me and never show the real me inside. mayb i'll find some ppl who understand me and swap eyeliner with them. i can hope, rite?

neway, i made this button b/c none of the ones jono made were rite for me. hope u like it :)