so im listnin 2 the finl edit of ep 4 n i noticd i let my positiv act slip 4 a few seconds, i sed:

[suse linux instaler] askd me so many questoins i wantd 2 harm myself

bt luckily the othrs thout it ws a joke so im okay...

so my honey pot caught a harvester wihc sounds like a uphemism lol but neway they start the email mockin me 4 being sad as if i need to be happy about some spammer but otherwise the rest of the day will b horrible and monotonous (tahts a new word i just learnt lol its gd isnt it! theres not even a red squiggle sayin its spelt wrong i got it rite 1st time!)

also they tell me 2 tell my friends bt if u look at my lj profile i only have 3 friends and 1 of them is me lol and jono and matt don't count... i'm so alone :'(

k so u lot mock me 4 my hair colour and tho i chose this lj name bc of my hair and laugh bout it with u ill come clean: i hate it. i hate the way it makes ppl treat me. i hate mirrors. so i decided that since im letting my tru feelings out i shld get ur opinion on what i shld change it 2

ive bin playin with iphoto 2day... its pretty gd! u can edit ppl! ade u shld c what i did 2 u lol but not puttin it on the net bc its private ;) neway i thought id c what i look like with black hair

i dont think it works with my beard so i tried colourin that 2

im not sure lol maybe i shld gro my hair wat do u think???

on my other blog mj ray keeps telling me how much he h8s me :( i jst want 2 b left alone. i hope he doesnt find this 1... plz dont tell him i can trust u ppl rite? i have 2 trust someone all my friends lie 2 me :( like when jono sed he loved me but he prefers some dog :(((((

k ye i admit it it is me on that blog too not some imposter lol did i trick u?

also u helped me with my broadband and things b4 so can u help me choose a new ipod? i no they rnt free bt tbh im bored of my dull meaningless bleak free wrld i just wanna listen 2 music! y dose it have 2 b so hard to enjoy music???

so some bloke pretendin 2 be me has told the world about this account :( bastard why cant he let me be myself!

i guess ill have to go friends only... comment on here who u r & ill friend u.

also, i go on at jono for likin metal but its actually q good... u should listen 2 panic! at the disco they r more metal than jono and much better singers 2 i understand their pain and they seem 2 understand mine...

edit i want 2 no how the imposter found me :(

u prolly kno that LugRadio Live is happenin again this summer. i rly dont want 2 go... i hate having to pretend to b happy for all the ppl watching me and never show the real me inside. mayb i'll find some ppl who understand me and swap eyeliner with them. i can hope, rite?

neway, i made this button b/c none of the ones jono made were rite for me. hope u like it :)